not to mention watching Gothamchess have showcase
Struggling to reach 1200 rapid
One thing…NEVER GIVE UP! If you truly want to reach 1200, keep on trying and trying. That is the best info I can give.
You are completely underestimating your own progress. Getting good at chess is a slow process. You where around 1000 on first October, now in November you are 1150. That is very good progress.
Chess is not like other games, it takes time to get good. I have know a guy who struggled to get past 1000, despite playing for years. And he wasn't an idiot, he was a professional programmer / web designer.
Just give it time. Watch Daniel Naroditsky instead of gotham. Get good at endgames, analyze your defeats, play 150 games each month.
I have been binging puzzles, I learn from chess.com lessons, I read chess books, I play 3-4 15|10 min games yet I can't reach 1200.