do not quit you can make it all back
heil hitle
If you are "average" then that means you are better than half the people out there. That's not bad.
The only reason to play chess is for fun. It's a game. The more you focus on getting better, the worse you will probably feel about your game and yourself. There is ALWAYS going to be someone a lot better at chess than you. It's a game, meant to be enjoyed with the people you care about, and new people you meet who you might end up caring about.
When I played competitively, well over 30 years ago, I was rated in the mid 1400s. There were so many people better than me. Now I never play competitively. I play with friends and family. Now that I don't care about how good I am, I am playing probably the best of my life.
This was the only "talent" I had growing up. And now, after 2 years of playing, I'm not even in the top 10%. Meanwhile, kids half my age are mogging my elo. I don't think I'll ever be good, not just at chess, but at anything in life. This game sums up all I'll ever be. Average.
But his ELO has been mogged! The poor li'l critter has been playing for two whole years only to be mogged!
This really doesn't sound like it's about chess. You're unhappy elsewhere in life. To fix it, the solutions are not chess-related. One thing you could learn is to not punish yourself by talking yourself down when things don't go the way you want. Every great player has experienced many failures, but they understood that advancing is a process which involves setbacks. This also means having the discipline to respect your opponents' abilities too, even if you crushed them, that doesn't make you 'better.' It goes both ways, taking a mature perspective can help you see both yourself and the board more objectively.
heil hitle